What am I supposed to do...? T_T

I got my letter from Lewis & Clark today, and...I wasn't accepted or declined. They're putting me into the regular application pool (instead of the early action), so I have to wait until April to know whether I get in or not. It says I only have a 1/3 chance of getting in... I have a bad feeling about this because I don't have much of my Japanese courses done. I can finish the second semester of the first year in the time they're allowing me to send in additional grades and such, but I still feel that may not be enough.

As of right now, I'm a nervous wreck. I don't know what to do--if I don't get in, I really don't know what I'm going to do. I'll most likely go to Portland anyway, because...well, more is riding on this than just college--let's just put it that way--but... *Sigh* I really, really don't know what to do about this. ;_; It says I can send additional grades and assignments and such, but...I'm so nervous... There's so much that depends on this (especially emotionally).

;_;

I think I might have something very important to write tonight, if I can get up my courage enough to even write it.

Well, I need all the luck I can get. I suppose I'm going to be spending the next two or so months scrambling to do anything that'll make me look better on the application.

What am I supposed to do...? T_T

I got my letter from Lewis & Clark today, and...I wasn't accepted or declined. They're putting me into the regular application pool (instead of the early action), so I have to wait until April to know whether I get in or not. It says I only have a 1/3 chance of getting in... I have a bad feeling about this because I don't have much of my Japanese courses done. I can finish the second semester of the first year in the time they're allowing me to send in additional grades and such, but I still feel that may not be enough.

As of right now, I'm a nervous wreck. I don't know what to do--if I don't get in, I really don't know what I'm going to do. I'll most likely go to Portland anyway, because...well, more is riding on this than just college--let's just put it that way--but... *Sigh* I really, really don't know what to do about this. ;_; It says I can send additional grades and assignments and such, but...I'm so nervous... There's so much that depends on this (especially emotionally).

;_;

I think I might have something very important to write tonight, if I can get up my courage enough to even write it.

Well, I need all the luck I can get. I suppose I'm going to be spending the next two or so months scrambling to do anything that'll make me look better on the application.

*Sigh*

Feeling slightly better than I was before, but I'm still rather jarred and upset. There's still a chance I'll get in (and not too bad of one), I know--I just have a bad feeling about that chance, even if I work really hard and do my best to make my portfolio more impressive. :/ It's pathetic I was on the verge of crying about ten times over the fact that they said they're still considering it (okay, and one of the times I was thinking about Brokeback Mountain. Yes, I'm feeling sappy and not altogether sane at the moment). It's not like I was rejected altogether. O_o;

I'm drowning my sorrows in the Brokeback Mountain soundtrack (which I just downloaded, but will honestly buy at some point XD) and writing something very important I've been putting off for way too long. At this point, I'm starting to get all messed-up feeling and I should probably stop writing for the sake of what I'm writing. I feel sort of like I'm in a dream right now...

Ack, and my lower back really hurts for no apparent reason. x.x

*Sigh*

Feeling slightly better than I was before, but I'm still rather jarred and upset. There's still a chance I'll get in (and not too bad of one), I know--I just have a bad feeling about that chance, even if I work really hard and do my best to make my portfolio more impressive. :/ It's pathetic I was on the verge of crying about ten times over the fact that they said they're still considering it (okay, and one of the times I was thinking about Brokeback Mountain. Yes, I'm feeling sappy and not altogether sane at the moment). It's not like I was rejected altogether. O_o;

I'm drowning my sorrows in the Brokeback Mountain soundtrack (which I just downloaded, but will honestly buy at some point XD) and writing something very important I've been putting off for way too long. At this point, I'm starting to get all messed-up feeling and I should probably stop writing for the sake of what I'm writing. I feel sort of like I'm in a dream right now...

Ack, and my lower back really hurts for no apparent reason. x.x

Because I forgot 'til now...

Happy birthday, Gaara! I hope you get...uh...whatever it is you want. Love and friends and eye makeup? Oh, wait--I KNOW--sleep!

I'm seriously considering blaming Gaara for everything again. It's his fault my back hurts, dammit! It's his fault I may not have gotten into the college of my choice! It's his fault Jack and Ennis don't get to be together! It's his fault...er... I think that's everything I have to complain about at the moment. Darn. ._.; I would complain about Ikue Ootani being sick, but then it turned out she was pregnant instead. So, um, nevermind? I may despise babies, but...it's Ikue Ootani, so I'm pretty darn sure I can forgive her. XD; 'Cause...y'know, you can't be mad at Pikachu. EVER.

Wow, three posts within the space of a few hours. I feel vaguely pathetic.

Because I forgot 'til now...

Happy birthday, Gaara! I hope you get...uh...whatever it is you want. Love and friends and eye makeup? Oh, wait--I KNOW--sleep!

I'm seriously considering blaming Gaara for everything again. It's his fault my back hurts, dammit! It's his fault I may not have gotten into the college of my choice! It's his fault Jack and Ennis don't get to be together! It's his fault...er... I think that's everything I have to complain about at the moment. Darn. ._.; I would complain about Ikue Ootani being sick, but then it turned out she was pregnant instead. So, um, nevermind? I may despise babies, but...it's Ikue Ootani, so I'm pretty darn sure I can forgive her. XD; 'Cause...y'know, you can't be mad at Pikachu. EVER.

Wow, three posts within the space of a few hours. I feel vaguely pathetic.