*Sigh*

[pacificpikachu]

Feeling slightly better than I was before, but I'm still rather jarred and upset. There's still a chance I'll get in (and not too bad of one), I know--I just have a bad feeling about that chance, even if I work really hard and do my best to make my portfolio more impressive. :/ It's pathetic I was on the verge of crying about ten times over the fact that they said they're still considering it (okay, and one of the times I was thinking about Brokeback Mountain. Yes, I'm feeling sappy and not altogether sane at the moment). It's not like I was rejected altogether. O_o;

I'm drowning my sorrows in the Brokeback Mountain soundtrack (which I just downloaded, but will honestly buy at some point XD) and writing something very important I've been putting off for way too long. At this point, I'm starting to get all messed-up feeling and I should probably stop writing for the sake of what I'm writing. I feel sort of like I'm in a dream right now...

Ack, and my lower back really hurts for no apparent reason. x.x