なみのり ピカチュウ (o^ : ^o)

I. AM GOING TO DO SO BADLY IN TOMORROW'S CHEM EXAM. T____T NOT FOR LACK OF WORK AND STUDYING, EITHER. I'm going to study most of the night and I studied most of today and last night but I don't think it's going to make enough of a difference to save me.

At least she drops one test, and at least once it's over, it's OVER, and I can stop freaking out and allowing this stupid test to rule my life. Even if I fail it. Which I will. I would be absolutely shocked if I got more than a C on this test. D:

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SOMETIMES I HATE BEING A SCIENCE MAJOR

ON THE PLUS SIDE, NEW HARUHI SEASON IN APRIL! :D

*Goes back to wallowing sadly in Chem homework and trying not to fall into utter despair*

Ughhhh I have so much Chemistry to do it's not even funny. I'm so unprepared for the test on Wednesday and my work ethic is down the toilet. :(

I went to the Songbird Team meeting today, which was wonderful and happy, and then went down to Roseville as a bad spur of the moment decision and got home at 10 PM. Of course, I somehow just remembered that 5 Centimeters Per Second is out of print and I saw one at Best Buy about a week ago, but then I forgot that it's Sunday so Best Buy closed before I could get there, making the whole five hour total trip moot (and this was all time that I should have been using to study).

Now I'm trying to talk myself into doing Chemistry work. I feel really unmotivated to do the work partly because I don't really understand what I'm doing all that well, and I don't understand it well enough because I didn't do the work. So basically I'm propagating my own CYCLE OF FAIL for absolutely no reason. WTF SELF, STOP THIS. *Flails unhappily* ;___; At least I still have a few days left to get working and learn the material to a point where I understand it and can do well on the test. To be honest, I almost always do this sort of awful, stressful cramming schedule anyway so I shouldn't be so shocked, but for some reason I always think I'm out of this problem and then it sneaks up on me.

I really just need to get my butt in gear. SERIOUSLY.

Also, Sword of the Stranger is playing in theaters on Thursday evening in Roseville, so I want to try to make it to that. And my driver's test is Thursday afternoon. I think I might try to plan a Dennou Coil marathon or something for this weekend or next weekend.

When I got home last night at almost 6 PM, I was a little tired, so I decided to take a nap for an hour at most. When I woke up, it was 12:30 AM, meaning I slept for nearly seven hours. I stayed up until 4 AM then was tired again, so I then I slept from 4:30 AM to 12:30 PM. And here I was going to go to a study group and get a bunch of things done last night... I don't know what triggered this insane amount of sleep--I felt like I was just a little tired. .___.

On the upside, I feel rather awake now!

( List of things to do, just for me basically. )

Poor Princess had to be shaved at a groomer's shop today because her fur got all matted (thanks to the fact that she has a screaming fit worthy of being in an exorcism movie when we try to brush her), so she looks kind of hilarious and downright tiny! She still has her fur on her head and tail, so she looks kind of like a strange, tiny, black and white lion. I'll post pictures of her when she's not still sedated.

Today went pretty darn well considering I got about three hours of sleep last night, if that. My Biology final was...not splendid, but okay--and it's over and I'm free for months and I can't believe it. I'm so happy, you have no idea.

I'm sorry I haven't been commenting much, everyone! I've been busy and every time I try to go through everyone's journals and make comments, I realize I have fifty-some windows open and then end up distracted.

This next week is going to be INSANE. In a good way, but insane nonetheless. I'm currently working on my Teto head (the ears are HUGE and HEAVY), though I should be going to sleep, seeing as I have to wake up at 8:30 AM to go to Fabric Boutique and work more on my costume. I'm really thrilled that I'm going to actually get all/pretty much all of it done within the next couple o' weeks. Then it's Fanime! :O I'm totally in denial that Fanime is coming up so fast. I'm super-excited to debut my costume once I get it all done. ♥

So, then on Sunday I'm going down to the Bay Area to visit my grandma for Mother's Day. Bay Area trips are always always always good simply because I ADORE the Bay Area and the drive to it and listening to music on the way there and... It is major love. Even if I don't do anything while I'm there.

Monday I might work on cosplay some more if I need to, might watch the animals... I don't know, really.

Tuesday I'm gathering supplies for rehabbing at Jacqui's house, and Wednesday I can finally get birds in! SO, BABY BIRD PICTURES EVERYONE! Yayyyy! Of course, then Mom scheduled an appointment with the allergist on Wednesday, too, so that's a bit of a problem that needs working out.

On top of this all, I have a Pokémon Diamond and Pearl tournament I'm participating in, tons of anime to watch, and I don't even know what else. @_@

Speaking of Pokémon Diamond, I have SIX eggs to hatch! Riolu, Eevee, Phione, and the three unknown eggs I got for the tournament.

Back to cosplay. You should see how much Wonderflex there is on the floor now. O_o;

THE OFFICE TONIGHT. :O :O :O It touched me so. ;_; I want to give Pam a big hug. A really big hug.

Probably none of you watch The Office anyway, so this is just babble. But. OMG. I want to watch it again.

Back to studying.

Feeling all the way better now, by the way. I guess the medication took twenty-four hours to wear off instead of the six the doctor said.

Okay, this has seriously been a terrible two weeks. Terrible. I swear the universe is conspiring against me at this very moment, because this is the worst possible time.

So, today I have to study for my HUGE BIOLOGY FINAL--which is tomorrow. I have hundreds of pages of very dense, complex material to memorize and organize and such, plus I missed a lab practical when the ambulance took me away last Friday, so I need to make that up, too.

Last night, I took what I thought was my Prednisone to help control the whole throat-getting-really-tight-and-making-me-go-to-the-ER thing. I took the four thought-to-be-Prednisone pills and went to bed a little later because I was really tired for what was an unknown reason at the time.

When I woke up in the morning at 6 AM, I felt like I had been hit by a truck. I could hardly stand up, hardly stay awake, started crying hysterically, and felt dizzier than I can describe. My whole body felt heavy, and I was (and still am, to a degree) basically a total mess.

I go check that medicine I took.

It turns out that Mom left Zanex or whatever the hell it's called in my room because the doctor wanted me to take one if my throat tightens up again (they seem to believe it's been caused by stress, even though I know for a fact it isn't because I wasn't stressed out, which I've told them a million times). And I took four pills of that instead.

Now, Zanex is a relaxant for panic attacks and such. You're supposed to take one or two. I took four. Luckily, it wasn't a dangerous dose (seriously, if I had taken a couple more who knows if I'd even be alive), but it's scary as hell and nearly impossible to study. So, the entire day I've been woozy, exhausted, sleeping on and off, feeling absolutely terrible, and at one point I even started falling asleep and I honestly, truly thought I was going to die because I literally couldn't move my body--at all--for some undetermined amount of time. I thought I was just dying right then and there. For reference, I'm not a paranoid person by any stretch of the imagination. I'm serious when I say this was scary. I can hardly even remember it now, though.

Studying has been extremely difficult. I'm doing my best. But, damn it, I am SO frustrated that this happened. The Zanex looked to me pretty much exactly like the Prednisone pills, and because Prednisone was the only medicine in my room previously, I didn't even think to check the label.

Gah, why? Seriously, why did this have to happen? I'm still totally woozy and messed-up and studying is nearly impossible in the state I'm in.

I can't understand for the life of me why anyone would voluntarily subject themselves to this stuff. This is why I'll never even drink any alcohol. More than anything in the world, I hate feeling like I can't control myself.

I HAVE...A FRIEND CODE.

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My trainer name is Pacific. Add me now, and give me your friend code if you have one!

In other news, I am very grumpy and my math final didn't go so well. :/ And I need to study for the Biology final.

I'll probably be on wi-fi anyway.

CURRENTLY WORKING ON GETTING WIFI TOTALLY WORKING AND A FRIEND CODE ON POKEMON. So I will make a post when I finish that. I expect every last one of you who has the game to add me so we can trade/battle/talk/whatever.

Math final tomorrow. Need to study more. Need to go to bed. Want to play Pokémon instead. But can't.

Also: VERY EXCITED ABOUT COSPLAY. WITHIN A WEEK OR SO (maybe a little more :<), I WILL PROBABLY HAVE A COMPLETED COSTUME. OMG. I CAN'T WAIT!

Must sleep. Must do well on finals. Must not get too sidetracked by Pokémon, cosplay, and impending birds. Will have to study tomorrow morning. And tomorrow. And Thursday. It will be difficult. But I. WILL. LIVE. SOMEHOW.

CHICKENS ARE THE BEST ANIMALS ALIVE. AND DUCKS ARE REALLY COOL, TOO. I SHOULD POST PICTURES.

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Well, today was good and bad. Mostly kind of depressing, though. :/

I struggled to fall asleep last night due to difficulty breathing and feeling sick. However, when I woke up, I felt just fine. So, I got ready and went off to school. I dropped off my library books, did some studying for the lab practical, and went to class.

After two hours of lecture, struggling to breathe and feeling absolutely awful, I dragged myself off to the health center and had them call an ambulance. I could hardly talk I was having so much trouble breathing. Somehow, by the time the ambulance came I was already feeling a little better, but I got on (stretcher and all) and went to the ER of a hospital in Roseville. Dad met me there. I felt just fine by the time we arrived at the hospital, so all the monitoring devices measured that I was normal. They took some x-rays of my neck (which revealed absolutely nothing), and I ended up sitting in the hospital bed for about four hours. I played a little Leaf Green, but the wait was mostly just boring and annoying.

Yet again, the doctors have no idea what this is or how to get rid of it, so I don't know what to do. :(

I missed the test, so I'm going to have to e-mail my professor about that, and I also have to catch up on math stuff, plus I have finals to study for... So everything's pretty unhappy at the moment.

I did get my DS today, though! It's lovely. Used, so slightly scratched up on the outside, but not bad at all. :D I can't wait to get Pokémon Diamond and Pearl!