Blehhh...

Gah, I wasn't feeling all that bad last night, though I had trouble falling asleep, woke up a few times, and was was feeling maybe a little feverish. I'd say I was only about a 6 on a stress scale of 1-10 (10 being "Just kill me now", and 1 being "Not stressed at all"--for the record, during my breakdown, I was easily a 9), so I wasn't expecting my body to react badly.

But I got up this morning, shivered a little and was tired, got up, started brushing my teeth, and felt like throwing up. So I did. Now I just feel really icky... That sort of vague, cyclic "Blehhh" feeling. So, not going to school today. I'm probably going to sit around and watch anime all day, provided I even feel well enough to do that. ._.;

I'm going to guess one of three things could have caused me to be sick: a) I'm more stressed/upset than I think I am, b) I caught something from someone at school, c) a combination of both.

It's really too bad, too. I actually wanted to go to school today. I wanted to finish my art project, which is only half-done at this point and is supposed to be due today. Even more so, I wanted to have some sort of...healing time, in the emotional sense, but going through a normal day and getting hugs from Cody and laughing at my friends, and being reminded in general that "Hey, it'll be okay."

Oh well.

Blehhh...

Gah, I wasn't feeling all that bad last night, though I had trouble falling asleep, woke up a few times, and was was feeling maybe a little feverish. I'd say I was only about a 6 on a stress scale of 1-10 (10 being "Just kill me now", and 1 being "Not stressed at all"--for the record, during my breakdown, I was easily a 9), so I wasn't expecting my body to react badly.

But I got up this morning, shivered a little and was tired, got up, started brushing my teeth, and felt like throwing up. So I did. Now I just feel really icky... That sort of vague, cyclic "Blehhh" feeling. So, not going to school today. I'm probably going to sit around and watch anime all day, provided I even feel well enough to do that. ._.;

I'm going to guess one of three things could have caused me to be sick: a) I'm more stressed/upset than I think I am, b) I caught something from someone at school, c) a combination of both.

It's really too bad, too. I actually wanted to go to school today. I wanted to finish my art project, which is only half-done at this point and is supposed to be due today. Even more so, I wanted to have some sort of...healing time, in the emotional sense, but going through a normal day and getting hugs from Cody and laughing at my friends, and being reminded in general that "Hey, it'll be okay."

Oh well.

Snow and my emotions seem to be on the same wavelength...

Damn, I just typed out some extremely personal, hard-to-write stuff, and then it got erased, and for some reason LiveJournal only autosaved the first 's'. Anyway, I'll try to write it again, I suppose... It's important for me to write about, I think, simply for the sake of writing it.

I swear, every time I get upset, it snows. It's really weird.

I spent most of the day watching anime, as my physical symptoms of sickness apparently disappeared when I was better rested. I rewatched Gankutsuou episodes 6-8, just to make sure my memory wasn't faulty as to what happened in said episodes, and then crammed the last seven episodes of Saikano.

Saikano was really good--very painful, powerful, and wonderful series. Mostly because I could identify with the feelings of the characters, I found my eyes quite wet on at least eight occasions. This is not to say I actually cried--but I was definitely feeling for the characters, and because my own emotions have gone haywire on me again, I couldn't help but let the tears build up in my eyes. I definitely recommend it if you need a good cry.

( Some pretty serious, emo-sounding angst. Read at your own risk. )

Snow and my emotions seem to be on the same wavelength...

Damn, I just typed out some extremely personal, hard-to-write stuff, and then it got erased, and for some reason LiveJournal only autosaved the first 's'. Anyway, I'll try to write it again, I suppose... It's important for me to write about, I think, simply for the sake of writing it.

I swear, every time I get upset, it snows. It's really weird.

I spent most of the day watching anime, as my physical symptoms of sickness apparently disappeared when I was better rested. I rewatched Gankutsuou episodes 6-8, just to make sure my memory wasn't faulty as to what happened in said episodes, and then crammed the last seven episodes of Saikano.

Saikano was really good--very painful, powerful, and wonderful series. Mostly because I could identify with the feelings of the characters, I found my eyes quite wet on at least eight occasions. This is not to say I actually cried--but I was definitely feeling for the characters, and because my own emotions have gone haywire on me again, I couldn't help but let the tears build up in my eyes. I definitely recommend it if you need a good cry.

( Some pretty serious, emo-sounding angst. Read at your own risk. )

Wow, self...

I didn't even know I had that many tears in my body. That's the most I've cried in...as long as I can remember. I hope I'm not going to be dehydrated or something... Maybe I should drink some water. ._.;

I wish I could just deal with this reasonably, but apparently not...

Wow, self...

I didn't even know I had that many tears in my body. That's the most I've cried in...as long as I can remember. I hope I'm not going to be dehydrated or something... Maybe I should drink some water. ._.;

I wish I could just deal with this reasonably, but apparently not...