I suppose I'm more resilient than I believed myself to be...

Obscuring of the truth, no matter how painful that truth may be, always hurts more than finding out about the truth and dealing with it. I thought I'd react much worst than I did, but... I still have hope. More hope than I probably should. I almost feel bad for how much hope I have now, because...gah, that's hard to explain. There is more talking to be done amongst myself and my three best friends, and there are definitely things to deal with, but... I can do it. There are limits to what I can and cannot handle (and those will be discussed ad nauseum, I'm sure), most definitely, but I can do it. Nicole, you seriously underestimated my power to adapt--and just how much I love. I'm going to have to lecture you on that, methinks. :P KK, don't worry...I forgive you, our friendship isn't going to change, and we need to have a big, BIG conversation some time soon.

If you don't understand that last paragraph, don't worry about it. XD;; I'm probably not going to explain it to you, so don't even try.

Anyway, it was a good day. Strangely--it shouldn't have been, considering what I found out (it should have been hell)--but it was.

I woke up in the morning, felt immensely stressed, and therefore reacted in the most logical way possible:

I played Solitaire. For like...two hours. XD;; Yeeeah. Then I took a shower, ate breakfast, and proceeded to play with my dogs/cats/birds/guinea pigs for several hours, while simultaneously reading Great Expectations (which, I confess, I'm having wayyy too wonderful a time reading).

Before 2 PM, we took off for my first Songbird Society meeting. It was at this really cool house--so that was nifty. We basically just discussed for most of the meeting (I surprised myself by actually taking an active role in the suggestions), and went outside to check out the really awesome flight cage at the lady's house. In another random note, I'm sooo envious of her chicken coop! I know that sounds stupid to non-chicken people, but she had the COOLEST chicken coop. It had tubes for the chickens to go through, and...and...! Okay, I'll shut up now. We had a mini-lesson on taking care of baby birds, and then Mom picked me up. I'm SO PSYCHED to start taking care of widdle baby birdies... It's going to be crazy amounts of work (you have to feed them literally every fifteen minutes), but it'll be so much fun! ♥

We saw a bunch of wild turkeys on the way out. :D

Um, we went home after that, and Cody called, Ryan gave him directions, and so Cody, KK, and Nicole all showed up at Mom's. They didn't get to stay too long, seeing as Mom had to go to work. Basically from there , Cody just gave the three of us rides home, but...er...yeah.

So, in conclusion, I'm just glad things are clearing up, even if it's not in the way I wanted them to. I'm going to have a hard time dealing with this, but I will, somehow, and... I'm starting to worry about my determination level, because apparently I'm much more determined than I thought I was.

I suppose I'm more resilient than I believed myself to be...

Obscuring of the truth, no matter how painful that truth may be, always hurts more than finding out about the truth and dealing with it. I thought I'd react much worst than I did, but... I still have hope. More hope than I probably should. I almost feel bad for how much hope I have now, because...gah, that's hard to explain. There is more talking to be done amongst myself and my three best friends, and there are definitely things to deal with, but... I can do it. There are limits to what I can and cannot handle (and those will be discussed ad nauseum, I'm sure), most definitely, but I can do it. Nicole, you seriously underestimated my power to adapt--and just how much I love. I'm going to have to lecture you on that, methinks. :P KK, don't worry...I forgive you, our friendship isn't going to change, and we need to have a big, BIG conversation some time soon.

If you don't understand that last paragraph, don't worry about it. XD;; I'm probably not going to explain it to you, so don't even try.

Anyway, it was a good day. Strangely--it shouldn't have been, considering what I found out (it should have been hell)--but it was.

I woke up in the morning, felt immensely stressed, and therefore reacted in the most logical way possible:

I played Solitaire. For like...two hours. XD;; Yeeeah. Then I took a shower, ate breakfast, and proceeded to play with my dogs/cats/birds/guinea pigs for several hours, while simultaneously reading Great Expectations (which, I confess, I'm having wayyy too wonderful a time reading).

Before 2 PM, we took off for my first Songbird Society meeting. It was at this really cool house--so that was nifty. We basically just discussed for most of the meeting (I surprised myself by actually taking an active role in the suggestions), and went outside to check out the really awesome flight cage at the lady's house. In another random note, I'm sooo envious of her chicken coop! I know that sounds stupid to non-chicken people, but she had the COOLEST chicken coop. It had tubes for the chickens to go through, and...and...! Okay, I'll shut up now. We had a mini-lesson on taking care of baby birds, and then Mom picked me up. I'm SO PSYCHED to start taking care of widdle baby birdies... It's going to be crazy amounts of work (you have to feed them literally every fifteen minutes), but it'll be so much fun! ♥

We saw a bunch of wild turkeys on the way out. :D

Um, we went home after that, and Cody called, Ryan gave him directions, and so Cody, KK, and Nicole all showed up at Mom's. They didn't get to stay too long, seeing as Mom had to go to work. Basically from there , Cody just gave the three of us rides home, but...er...yeah.

So, in conclusion, I'm just glad things are clearing up, even if it's not in the way I wanted them to. I'm going to have a hard time dealing with this, but I will, somehow, and... I'm starting to worry about my determination level, because apparently I'm much more determined than I thought I was.