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pacificpikachuHappy Thanksgiving, everyone! I hope you had a good one. :D
I personally am not a fan of Thanksgiving because of the turkey element, but nonetheless it is nice to have another day to spend with family and eat food. We drove down to San Francisco today to celebrate with my dad's side of the family, and this was pleasant and mostly uneventful.
Did see a disturbing sight on the way back, though--a buck that had been hit by a car. He was struggling to get up, but obviously couldn't, and he was lying in a puddle of blood and had blood streaming out of his mouth. The police officer on the scene had his rifle raised and ready. While there was nothing I could do, as even with wildlife rehab licenses adult deer cannot be rehabilitated (and this guy looked beyond help, anyway), it pains me to see animals in pain and makes me feel this deep urge to do something even when there's nothing I can do. I'm glad his pain is almost certainly over by now, but nonetheless it was deeply saddening to me. The humans celebrate, and many animals (and people in less affluent countries/worse situations) continue to suffer as always... I know it's kind of a gloomy thing to say on a happy holiday, but to me it is always important to note what goes on beyond superficial celebration. Blargh, it still does sound depressing. :/ Anyway, I'm not depressed, just thoughtful. Just noting things to myself.
One thing that annoys me about myself is my lack of commitment to my little promises of actions I'll make. I have a hard time following through with things like finishing drawings for friends, sending cards, watching some anime series I promised I'd watch, those sorts of things. It's certainly not because I don't care, but more because I always have so much going on in my mind and my life that I have trouble getting to tasks that don't feel "essential" or "extremely time sensitive". This is partly why I decided not to do more sales for a while after I finish getting rid of the current stuff I have--I just know myself, and I know things always come up and then I have a hard time being timely and organized.
I always think this is going to change when I promise some task to someone, but the truth is, it doesn't change. I still wait as long as I possibly can to do these things, forget altogether, or fall victim to my own busy schedule. I'm just a total space case about certain types of things (while being extremely reliable in other areas), I have a hard time getting to doing stuff I should. I've always been that way, I'm the same way about my chores I'm supposed to do that don't actually affect the quality of life of my animals. Not because I intend to forget to do them or lose track of what I'm doing, I just have a lot of trouble keeping priorities straight in some situations. I'm easily distracted and just have so much going on in my mind that things get buried under other (usually more abstract) thoughts quickly.
I hope I can change this, but so far I haven't done so well. My best solution is, sadly, to try not to promise things I logically know I won't complete quickly. If something does come up that I can't avoid or don't want to avoid for some reason, I will do my best to get to it ASAP, not tomorrow or the next day or next week/month/year.
I guess the point is, please try to be patient with me if I say I'll do some task and it takes me forever. It's never anything personal, and chances are I will finish it after a while. I honestly try, I really do, but I just suck at remembering what I'm supposed to do and getting to actually doing it.
On this note, I need to package everything for shipping once my packing materials show up, get Gin's package totally ready to go and send it out ASAP, finish![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
feralspirited's drawing, finish the scene in my NaNo/get it verified, and...let's leave it at that for now, for the sake of my terrible short-term memory.
I personally am not a fan of Thanksgiving because of the turkey element, but nonetheless it is nice to have another day to spend with family and eat food. We drove down to San Francisco today to celebrate with my dad's side of the family, and this was pleasant and mostly uneventful.
Did see a disturbing sight on the way back, though--a buck that had been hit by a car. He was struggling to get up, but obviously couldn't, and he was lying in a puddle of blood and had blood streaming out of his mouth. The police officer on the scene had his rifle raised and ready. While there was nothing I could do, as even with wildlife rehab licenses adult deer cannot be rehabilitated (and this guy looked beyond help, anyway), it pains me to see animals in pain and makes me feel this deep urge to do something even when there's nothing I can do. I'm glad his pain is almost certainly over by now, but nonetheless it was deeply saddening to me. The humans celebrate, and many animals (and people in less affluent countries/worse situations) continue to suffer as always... I know it's kind of a gloomy thing to say on a happy holiday, but to me it is always important to note what goes on beyond superficial celebration. Blargh, it still does sound depressing. :/ Anyway, I'm not depressed, just thoughtful. Just noting things to myself.
One thing that annoys me about myself is my lack of commitment to my little promises of actions I'll make. I have a hard time following through with things like finishing drawings for friends, sending cards, watching some anime series I promised I'd watch, those sorts of things. It's certainly not because I don't care, but more because I always have so much going on in my mind and my life that I have trouble getting to tasks that don't feel "essential" or "extremely time sensitive". This is partly why I decided not to do more sales for a while after I finish getting rid of the current stuff I have--I just know myself, and I know things always come up and then I have a hard time being timely and organized.
I always think this is going to change when I promise some task to someone, but the truth is, it doesn't change. I still wait as long as I possibly can to do these things, forget altogether, or fall victim to my own busy schedule. I'm just a total space case about certain types of things (while being extremely reliable in other areas), I have a hard time getting to doing stuff I should. I've always been that way, I'm the same way about my chores I'm supposed to do that don't actually affect the quality of life of my animals. Not because I intend to forget to do them or lose track of what I'm doing, I just have a lot of trouble keeping priorities straight in some situations. I'm easily distracted and just have so much going on in my mind that things get buried under other (usually more abstract) thoughts quickly.
I hope I can change this, but so far I haven't done so well. My best solution is, sadly, to try not to promise things I logically know I won't complete quickly. If something does come up that I can't avoid or don't want to avoid for some reason, I will do my best to get to it ASAP, not tomorrow or the next day or next week/month/year.
I guess the point is, please try to be patient with me if I say I'll do some task and it takes me forever. It's never anything personal, and chances are I will finish it after a while. I honestly try, I really do, but I just suck at remembering what I'm supposed to do and getting to actually doing it.
On this note, I need to package everything for shipping once my packing materials show up, get Gin's package totally ready to go and send it out ASAP, finish
feralspirited's drawing, finish the scene in my NaNo/get it verified, and...let's leave it at that for now, for the sake of my terrible short-term memory.
