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Mar. 2nd, 2009 03:05 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pacificpikachuWell, so much for sleeping. Not only have I not been able to sleep to begin with and there are only two and a half hours until the auction ends, mom is already thinking about the possibility of having to put Tia down.
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I'm not going to jump to those sorts of conclusions until she's seen a vet, and even if she's had a stroke (which is one of the first things I thought about when I saw her third eyelid partially up on only one eye) they can generally recover, but. Goddammit. She can't walk at all at the moment, or even stand. If we do end up having to put her down, that will be a huge blow to our family, and to be honest I'm not fully recovered from putting Lily down, even though that was over two years ago. I just hope it's something Tia can recover from. I really, really do. Think good thoughts for her, please.
How am I supposed to take the Chemistry exam with this thought in my head? Just as I felt like things were starting to look up, there's a chance they'll all fall apart again...
EDIT: Oh, I had forgotten that she has Lyme disease, and there's a possibility that's flaring up. Same things apply and the diagnosis still might not be good, but at least this makes more sense... I'm hoping this severe of a problem is treatable. :(
EDIT 2: Talking to mom, things are sounding even worse, because she's big enough that only my brother can carry her, so even if she can recover what we'll do until then is kind of up in the air. I'm not giving up hope yet by any means, but there's definitely a possibility today will be goodbye... I can't even grasp that at all--not so suddenly. I only heard about this yesterday morning. I don't even know what to do about my exam at all. I don't know if I can study at all in this state, and I'm not sure my professor would allow a retake... I don't even know what to do at all. I can't stop crying.
EDIT 3: And on a minor note, I lost the auction as well. It went way too high, even for my super-insane Umbreon-loving self. D: Man, I underestimated Umbreon fever, and I have it pretty bad! (My max bid: $150. For a phone strap. YEAH. Would've probably gone higher if I could've, too.)
Been crying and crying and now I feel sick. I hope there's still a chance for Tia.
...
I'm not going to jump to those sorts of conclusions until she's seen a vet, and even if she's had a stroke (which is one of the first things I thought about when I saw her third eyelid partially up on only one eye) they can generally recover, but. Goddammit. She can't walk at all at the moment, or even stand. If we do end up having to put her down, that will be a huge blow to our family, and to be honest I'm not fully recovered from putting Lily down, even though that was over two years ago. I just hope it's something Tia can recover from. I really, really do. Think good thoughts for her, please.
How am I supposed to take the Chemistry exam with this thought in my head? Just as I felt like things were starting to look up, there's a chance they'll all fall apart again...
EDIT: Oh, I had forgotten that she has Lyme disease, and there's a possibility that's flaring up. Same things apply and the diagnosis still might not be good, but at least this makes more sense... I'm hoping this severe of a problem is treatable. :(
EDIT 2: Talking to mom, things are sounding even worse, because she's big enough that only my brother can carry her, so even if she can recover what we'll do until then is kind of up in the air. I'm not giving up hope yet by any means, but there's definitely a possibility today will be goodbye... I can't even grasp that at all--not so suddenly. I only heard about this yesterday morning. I don't even know what to do about my exam at all. I don't know if I can study at all in this state, and I'm not sure my professor would allow a retake... I don't even know what to do at all. I can't stop crying.
EDIT 3: And on a minor note, I lost the auction as well. It went way too high, even for my super-insane Umbreon-loving self. D: Man, I underestimated Umbreon fever, and I have it pretty bad! (My max bid: $150. For a phone strap. YEAH. Would've probably gone higher if I could've, too.)
Been crying and crying and now I feel sick. I hope there's still a chance for Tia.
