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It's been so hot lately! In the 90s every day. :( I hate heat and don't tolerate it well. I keep taking naps during the day to try and pass the heat, but it only does so much. During the heat, it seems like the list of Things Kristin Wants To Do drops from quite a number of things to pretty much one thing--sit around with a fan in my face, browse the internet, and eat large amounts of popsicles. Swimming would probably be a good idea as well, but to be honest I hadn't even thought of that until about a half-hour ago, ahaha.

The Salula is doing all right, I have her in the serama pen for now. Prince occasionally bullies her, but not in such a way that causes her any physical harm. The four serama chicks have moved out of my room and into the serama pen as well--they seem to be enjoying the extra space! I'm selling two of the four serama chicks, as there is someone who is very interested in them, and I can't keep the cockerel and two of the pullets look almost exactly alike so I figured I'd sell him the pair. That way the pair, who have been raised together, can stick together, too, while the other two still have each other. Charming is on eight or nine eggs, too, and those should hatch reasonably soon! I'm not sure when exactly, but...at some point, haha.

Pen-Pen is also doing fine. His neck doesn't seem to be getting better, but it's not getting worse either, and he's getting around fine, eating well, quacking, and generally seems to be all right. I'm keeping him on the Tetracycline just in case, but so far he seems to be okay. His neck might just be a permanent disability, and if that's the case, well, whatever. It doesn't really seem to bother him and it doesn't bother me.

I'm going to Tahoe on Friday for family reunion! On one hand I'm quite excited, oddly enough I really like spending time with my extended family even though we don't always have that much in common (some are very religious, etc.). And it's nice to have a vacation that's actually relaxing, as opposed to things like Anime Expo that are fun as can be but STRESSFUL. On the other hand it means I have to leave my buuuurds! ;A; Ahhh I'm going to worry about them so much in the heat! Anyway, can't help that, it's not like I'm going to skip out on vacation just to stare at my chickens when they'll probably be just fine. And obviously I can't bring the burds with me on my trip. XD

I think I was dreaming about Yoko Kanno again last night. In fact, I'm almost certain I was, haha.

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It's been so hot lately! In the 90s every day. :( I hate heat and don't tolerate it well. I keep taking naps during the day to try and pass the heat, but it only does so much. During the heat, it seems like the list of Things Kristin Wants To Do drops from quite a number of things to pretty much one thing--sit around with a fan in my face, browse the internet, and eat large amounts of popsicles. Swimming would probably be a good idea as well, but to be honest I hadn't even thought of that until about a half-hour ago, ahaha.

The Salula is doing all right, I have her in the serama pen for now. Prince occasionally bullies her, but not in such a way that causes her any physical harm. The four serama chicks have moved out of my room and into the serama pen as well--they seem to be enjoying the extra space! I'm selling two of the four serama chicks, as there is someone who is very interested in them, and I can't keep the cockerel and two of the pullets look almost exactly alike so I figured I'd sell him the pair. That way the pair, who have been raised together, can stick together, too, while the other two still have each other. Charming is on eight or nine eggs, too, and those should hatch reasonably soon! I'm not sure when exactly, but...at some point, haha.

Pen-Pen is also doing fine. His neck doesn't seem to be getting better, but it's not getting worse either, and he's getting around fine, eating well, quacking, and generally seems to be all right. I'm keeping him on the Tetracycline just in case, but so far he seems to be okay. His neck might just be a permanent disability, and if that's the case, well, whatever. It doesn't really seem to bother him and it doesn't bother me.

I'm going to Tahoe on Friday for family reunion! On one hand I'm quite excited, oddly enough I really like spending time with my extended family even though we don't always have that much in common (some are very religious, etc.). And it's nice to have a vacation that's actually relaxing, as opposed to things like Anime Expo that are fun as can be but STRESSFUL. On the other hand it means I have to leave my buuuurds! ;A; Ahhh I'm going to worry about them so much in the heat! Anyway, can't help that, it's not like I'm going to skip out on vacation just to stare at my chickens when they'll probably be just fine. And obviously I can't bring the burds with me on my trip. XD

I think I was dreaming about Yoko Kanno again last night. In fact, I'm almost certain I was, haha.

Duckling.

Eugenie's duckling is dead. It's all my fault. I feel so terrible about it, ughhh, I don't even know what to do. I decided to put Eugenie and the duckling in the sun in a separate little pen in the chicken coop so they didn't have to be in the stuffy henhouse any more. Birds can get in and out of that pen, including guinea fowl, but usually whatever I put in that pen stays fairly safe. The duckling was around two weeks old or something, but it was getting big, and Eugenie was doing a good job mothering it.

I went to check on them just now, just two or so hours after I put them out, and the baby was dead in the dirt with the back of its head pecked. Probably a victim of the guinea fowl or the male ducks or could've been pretty much any of the birds.

I just feel so terrible. I could've SO easily put it them somewhere safer, in the serama coop or the back yard, or just ANYWHERE else, and avoided all of this, but no, I thought they'd be okay there despite my better judgment. I feel so terrible about it, I'm crying and I have a headache. ;____; I'm so sorry little duckling, I'm so sorry... I didn't think your life would end like this. I feel so awful for Eugenie, this was her first duckling she ever hatched on her own and raised. It was thriving, just a little earlier it was playing in the water and it was so darn cute.

I HATE deaths like this, just hate them. I feel so bad. And then if I try to move on and have a good time despite what happens, I feel bad about that, too, like I'm doing the animal a disservice and not honoring its life even though moping around and crying my eyes out doesn't change anything or help anyone.

I should just go to dad's and get my package and work on sales and do everything I planned on doing today, but I just feel guilty and sad. The poor duckling didn't deserve to die that way at all... I just wish I could go back in time and put them somewhere else. If I had, the baby would have been alive and well still. I know could and should and woulds don't do any good, but I just can't help but regret and feel so upset about what happened.

Duckling.

Eugenie's duckling is dead. It's all my fault. I feel so terrible about it, ughhh, I don't even know what to do. I decided to put Eugenie and the duckling in the sun in a separate little pen in the chicken coop so they didn't have to be in the stuffy henhouse any more. Birds can get in and out of that pen, including guinea fowl, but usually whatever I put in that pen stays fairly safe. The duckling was around two weeks old or something, but it was getting big, and Eugenie was doing a good job mothering it.

I went to check on them just now, just two or so hours after I put them out, and the baby was dead in the dirt with the back of its head pecked. Probably a victim of the guinea fowl or the male ducks or could've been pretty much any of the birds.

I just feel so terrible. I could've SO easily put it them somewhere safer, in the serama coop or the back yard, or just ANYWHERE else, and avoided all of this, but no, I thought they'd be okay there despite my better judgment. I feel so terrible about it, I'm crying and I have a headache. ;____; I'm so sorry little duckling, I'm so sorry... I didn't think your life would end like this. I feel so awful for Eugenie, this was her first duckling she ever hatched on her own and raised. It was thriving, just a little earlier it was playing in the water and it was so darn cute.

I HATE deaths like this, just hate them. I feel so bad. And then if I try to move on and have a good time despite what happens, I feel bad about that, too, like I'm doing the animal a disservice and not honoring its life even though moping around and crying my eyes out doesn't change anything or help anyone.

I should just go to dad's and get my package and work on sales and do everything I planned on doing today, but I just feel guilty and sad. The poor duckling didn't deserve to die that way at all... I just wish I could go back in time and put them somewhere else. If I had, the baby would have been alive and well still. I know could and should and woulds don't do any good, but I just can't help but regret and feel so upset about what happened.

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Still depressed about the poor duckling, but I'm gradually working my way out of being depressed about it... It's better to mourn it in bits and pieces instead of just feeling horribly gloomy about it all the time. ;; There's a good chance my serama eggs have begun to hatch, and if that is the case I may have some new fluffs to love on soon. ♥ Not that that can take the place of the duckling I lost, but at least it's a cute and happy distraction.

Anyway, from llamrei~

Used some NaNoWriMo bits to analyze this:

I write like
Chuck Palahniuk

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!

I also got JK Rowling, Tolkien, James Joyce, Asimov, and Margaret Atwood for different sections of things, heh. I'm having too much fun with this thing! *Continues to abuse it*

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Still depressed about the poor duckling, but I'm gradually working my way out of being depressed about it... It's better to mourn it in bits and pieces instead of just feeling horribly gloomy about it all the time. ;; There's a good chance my serama eggs have begun to hatch, and if that is the case I may have some new fluffs to love on soon. ♥ Not that that can take the place of the duckling I lost, but at least it's a cute and happy distraction.

Anyway, from llamrei~

Used some NaNoWriMo bits to analyze this:

I write like
Chuck Palahniuk

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!

I also got JK Rowling, Tolkien, James Joyce, Asimov, and Margaret Atwood for different sections of things, heh. I'm having too much fun with this thing! *Continues to abuse it*