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Dec. 20th, 2010 12:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
pacificpikachuI found two of my older serama chicks in the coop dead this morning. I can't figure out why, unless it was the cold that did them in. But it's been cold and wet for weeks, so I'm confused as to why they would suddenly be dead. Maybe they didn't go in the henhouse last night and they were too soaked to keep warm? That's all I can think. I thought they were under their mom last night. Really bummed that there were even more accidental deaths. This has been the worst, worst, worst year for accidental deaths, seriously, I made a list and it's ridiculous. :( (Otherwise the year has been pretty good, just that aspect is sad and hard to deal with.) Sick of critters dying on me. Determined to have things go better next year as far as accidental animal deaths. Going to do my best to prevent any more deaths. Moved all the pictures of chickens that died into my "RIP" folder. Kind of feel like crying, but not quite at the same time. Feel like a lousy animal caretaker even though I know that's not the truth at all and that all my other 90+ animals are happy and healthy and well cared for. That this stuff just happens.
The swan is sick, not ready to be released. I think it might have chlamydia like Tux did when I got him. Need to take the swan to the vet. I have to call and get clearance to take the swan to the vet, but our usual wildlife vet has Lou Gehrigs disease so he retired. (That's depressing, too, he's such a nice guy and really doesn't deserve to go that way. I found this out more than a month ago, but it's still sad.)
I'm sick of the rain. The rain itself doesn't bother me, in fact I like rain, but I hate how my chickens have to be out in it and it's all muddy and half-flooded in their coops.
And I feel sad again about humanity. I love many individuals, but I hate our species so much. I really do wish people would just stop having children altogether and we would die out gradually. It would solve so many problems and be peaceful and beautiful. Animal exploitation would end, as would our species destroying the planet, as would war and humanity being such a horrifying species.
Lost the Larvitar plushplush I wanted because I got up for a few minutes to check on chickens and during that few minutes![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
rentorar set an arbitrary deadline for the end of the bidding three minutes from when she set it, and by the time I returned I had been outbid and the replies frozen. :/ Also, lost three other auctions I wanted to win, but oh well.
I need to do the rest of my packaging and shipping and work on commissions but I'm too angsty and tired right now.
I'll be fine, really, I just need some time to wallow in my angst and then I'll get over it. I'm looking forward to the holidays and maybe going to Roseville with mom and maybe my brother later. I'll give myself a couple of hours to sit around and mope and then just grow a spine and get over it. Comments disabled because really, I'll be okay given a couple hours to pull myself together.
The swan is sick, not ready to be released. I think it might have chlamydia like Tux did when I got him. Need to take the swan to the vet. I have to call and get clearance to take the swan to the vet, but our usual wildlife vet has Lou Gehrigs disease so he retired. (That's depressing, too, he's such a nice guy and really doesn't deserve to go that way. I found this out more than a month ago, but it's still sad.)
I'm sick of the rain. The rain itself doesn't bother me, in fact I like rain, but I hate how my chickens have to be out in it and it's all muddy and half-flooded in their coops.
And I feel sad again about humanity. I love many individuals, but I hate our species so much. I really do wish people would just stop having children altogether and we would die out gradually. It would solve so many problems and be peaceful and beautiful. Animal exploitation would end, as would our species destroying the planet, as would war and humanity being such a horrifying species.
Lost the Larvitar plushplush I wanted because I got up for a few minutes to check on chickens and during that few minutes
rentorar set an arbitrary deadline for the end of the bidding three minutes from when she set it, and by the time I returned I had been outbid and the replies frozen. :/ Also, lost three other auctions I wanted to win, but oh well.I need to do the rest of my packaging and shipping and work on commissions but I'm too angsty and tired right now.
I'll be fine, really, I just need some time to wallow in my angst and then I'll get over it. I'm looking forward to the holidays and maybe going to Roseville with mom and maybe my brother later. I'll give myself a couple of hours to sit around and mope and then just grow a spine and get over it. Comments disabled because really, I'll be okay given a couple hours to pull myself together.
