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[pacificpikachu]

I had a great time at my wildlife rehab party! And then I came home to discover that my little tiny seramas killed two of my four baby Icelandics brutally. ;____; I feel awful... I know it's just a fluke, I had no way to know the seramas would do such a thing, but regardless I'm so sad. Those were the two with the cutest crests--the black one and white and black spotted one. Man, I just want to cry but at the same time I just want to move on and not think about it. I hate it when stuff like this happens, and keeping this many animals (and especially poultry) these sorts of things do happen every now and then. The duckling who was killed by my own birds, and I lost two hens to the guinea fowl, Salula got mutilated by one of my roosters and then eventually killed by some sort of predator after she recovered, and just...whatever. Tragic losses happen. What can I do? I can feel sad and mourn the birds I lost, I can learn from my mistakes, and that's all I can do. I just hate the conflicted feeling I get, like I want to mourn but at the same time I want to pretend it didn't happen because it hurts thinking about their deaths and thinking that I raised them from eggs and yet they'll never get to grow up because of my mistake. Really all I want to do is go back in time and prevent the tragedy from happening, but of course wishing such a thing is useless. It's too late, they've already suffered and died and there's nothing else I can do to change that.

RIP, little Icelandics. I'm so sorry you had to meet such an awful end. I'm sorry I made the mistake of putting the seramas in with you. I'm just so sorry...

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Anyway, sorry I haven't been posting much lately. I've been busy but haven't had much to say.

Comments

[pacificpikachu.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* Thank you... I'll pull through, but I'm really sad/disappointed. :(

[kyogres.livejournal.com]

Aw, poor birds. D:

[koyaaniisqatsi.livejournal.com]

Oh! :( I'm so sorry that happened... *tight hugs* ♥♥

[mommymoose.livejournal.com]

I think you are dealing quite well with everything that's gone on. Birds can be sooo difficult and I am amazed at what you have done with what you have so far. You've done your very best and need to look at the positive things, the accomplishments, what you've done with the others too!

::hugs::

[olesvenson.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry that that happened.