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[pacificpikachu]

The Salula got attacked again, this time by my serama rooster Prince. Her head is basically skinned, and she, for lack of a better way to put it, seems to have lost her will to live. I just. Augh, I feel so, so awful. Again, to some degree it's my fault, though again I didn't expect this to happen. I should have just kept her on her lonesome, but again it's that nagging feeling of not wanting animals to be alone, and trusting that they weren't going to hurt her because they went several days without causing her any harm. I already cried my eyes out over her this morning, I'm trying to accept that she's going to die. If she makes it through the night and still isn't eating or drinking tomorrow (I doubt she will be), I'm taking her to the intake center to have her put down. It's a hard decision, but I know it's the right one. She doesn't deserve to be in pain like this. I should've had her put down today, but Linda wasn't around during the earlier part of the day and then I had to go do other things and I didn't want her to have to hang around in the hot car.

And all this, losing perhaps my most beloved chicken and one of the ones I've had the longest, and even worse seeing her in so much pain, the day after losing my duckling so unexpectedly and suddenly. Ughhh these last few days have been awful. T____T I'll be fine given some time to mourn, and I know it's part of having this many animals, but boy is it painful. Not having The Salula around for the first time in twelve years is going to be sad, difficult, and strange. She has had a wonderful and long life and I've been trying to prepare myself for her demise for a long time, but she is a big part of my life and has been for so many years, there's no way I can just get over it right away.

On the flip side, Charming has hatched three adorable serama chicks so far and I think more are on the way. It's a good reminder that, where there is death and sadness there is life and joy, too. And Linda and I had such fun at the intake center today tube-feeding and splinting a heron, dealing with necrosis in the legs of nestling house finches, and so on.

Anyway, time to go do sales. Things will be better soon, it's just a matter of making it through the tough stuff.

Comments

[ensuing.livejournal.com]

!!!!!!!!

I'm so sorry to hear that, I hope that she perks up and somehow gets better. D= *hug*

[pacificpikachu.livejournal.com]

Mmm, thanks for the good thoughts, but I don't think she's going to get better. :( I guess there's some small chance, but I just...doubt it. She's already very underweight, not at all energetic or well, and I don't know if trying to treat the wound is ultimately even worth it considering her overall condition and age. I think it's probably best to just end her life, as sad and difficult as that is.

[bjango.livejournal.com]

Good luck with The Salula. I respect your decision, and my thoughts are with her.

[pacificpikachu.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :( It's so sad and awful to see her like this. Occasionally I'll think "Oh, maybe I'll let it try to heal and see what happens," but I think she's in a lot of pain and her overall condition isn't good, so this is...kind of a selfish clinging to hope that's not really there. She started losing weight probably a year and a half ago, so she's very thin, and at this point all she does is sit there with no interest in anything, no eating or drinking, nothing. Gah, it's going to be hard to say goodbye to her (she's been with me since I was ten), but I think the fairest decision for her sake is to let her go peacefully tomorrow... I am going to miss her so much.

[trf-chan.livejournal.com]

♥ *hugs*

[maggiesmusing.livejournal.com]

This is Makayla. This is really sad to hear. Do you want someone to be there with you?

[pacificpikachu.livejournal.com]

Nah, I'll be all right. It's just depressing is all... :( We could maybe hang out tomorrow evening or something if you're not busy, though. I get off my wildlife rehab shift at 5 PM so I'm free after that.

[maggiesmusing.livejournal.com]

Only if you are feeling up to it. But if you are feeling alright then I can come over about 5:30. Where would we be meeting your moms or dads?

[pacificpikachu.livejournal.com]

I do! I'm mostly fine, just kinda gloomy. :( I could use some distractions, y'know, especially because I'm probably putting her down tomorrow. But 5:30 would be perfect! And we could meet at my dad's. :) If I don't get there right away you can just hang out at my dad's, sometimes we get emergencies in at the last minute. But lately I get out on time like 90% of the time, so I should be there by 5:30.

[maggiesmusing.livejournal.com]

See you there then ^_^. Take care!

[koyaaniisqatsi.livejournal.com]

Best of luck with the Salula, I hope she pulls through but if she doesn't it really is best to let her go. *hugs*