pacificpikachu | I don't even know!

I am in such a weird state of mind right now. It's like my mood keeps changing and changing every second before I can even decide what mood I'm in. I feel quite restless as a result. Maybe this is from drinking a Sobe Energy and then spending almost the entire day on the computer, aside from caring for the chickens and taking the dogs for a walk. I don't know, my mood is mercurial, though, and over inconsequential random things. I keep boggling between negative thoughts and happy thoughts and can't settle on either ultimately.

Today the internet seemed very entertaining and filled with possibilities, haha. Sometimes it seems stale and doesn't hold my interest for long, but today it seemed all fresh and awesome for some unknown reason and I could hardly look away from it. I did a bunch of searching for cels (with surprising and excellent results), spent lots of time talking to the wonderful people on

pkmncollectors chat for many hours, looked at baby animals and various types of poultry, read some of a Philosophy course that I stumbled upon, and I don't even know what else. The weather wasn't too hot today, and the walk I took with the dogs was nice. Really, it was a good day, which is partly why I'm baffled by my weird, constantly changing mood at 2:30 AM when I ought to be going to bed.

Two of my baby quail died. :( I don't think I'm going to lose any more, though--all of the remaining five and the four seramas are energetic and healthy. Like I've said before, it's something you have to get used to when you raise poultry--there is a mortality rate in the first week or so, but that's just part of life. Usually after that the mortality drops off almost entirely.

I have lots to do in the next few days. Send packages (not too many, won't be bad to do), vote tomorrow, work at the intake center, do the art exchange for

poke_arts, try and get some resumes out to vet offices, try to figure out AX plans, figure out ways to make money for AX, and so on. I'm having trouble getting to doing anything lately again. I just don't have the willpower. I need to work on this and actually get things done.

I added three icons of baby tawny frogmouths because they are adorable and had too wonderful of expressions to resist. :D This icon is perfect for this post.

I feel a kind of lonely feeling again and I'm not sure why. Like something big and important is missing in my life, but I'm not sure what (other than willpower to some degree, heh, but I've been battling with that for a while). It's confusing. Things in my life are pretty good at the moment. Not ideal, but definitely on the positive side if I was to choose one side or the other. Maybe I'll feel better if I can cross off some things on my To Do list--that generally helps.

Maybe I just need to go to bed, even if I do feel all restless.

The other night I had a funny/odd dream that I was in Japan and took a shower somewhere, but there was nowhere to change into my clothes afterwards. As a result, I was running around with nothing but a towel on trying desperately to find somewhere to put my clothes on, but I couldn't find any bathrooms or even anywhere peaceful to put my clothes on. I went in this big, spacious, Japanese-style house of a total stranger and I was walking around looking for somewhere to put clothes on, and the family there was Mexican and very kind and said that there was a place I could change at a hostel down the street. When I searched for the building they referenced, there was only a rodeo-themed dance club. Finally I found a bathroom to change in, but as I was trying to change people kept walking in the bathroom on me so I was apologizing profusely. That's a lot of trouble to go to just to find somewhere to put clothes on. .____. I should have just put the damn clothes on in public if I was going to go to that much trouble.

Okay, I guess I'm done rambling about nothing. Going to bed is probably the best thing to do right about now, I can feel whatever is left of my sanity going down the tubes.

I hope I win my exciting auction tomorrow! :D Er, today. Whatever.