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[pacificpikachu]

Thanks for the comforting comments, everyone. ;; I'm feeling better today, although I'm still very, very sad that I lost those three. I loved them and I miss them a lot. They had such wonderful personalities and were so gorgeous. I'm trying not to be too depressed, as it doesn't change anything, but it's hard. :( I'm trying hard not to blame myself, too.

I set six call duck eggs in the incubator last night. Call ducks are hard to incubate so I'm not expecting anything out of this hatch, but I'm going to do my best regardless and see how it does! I'm following a bunch of suggestions offered to me by people on BackYardChickens who have successfully incubated call duck eggs, including hand turning them three times a day, misting the eggs, allowing the embryos to cool for a half-hour a day after the first week,and keeping the humidity fairly high. It'll be more difficult to incubate the call duck eggs than chicken eggs because of hand turning and all the things I need to do, but, hey, if I get even one duckling it'll be a joyous event. It's worth a try!

I think I may have had my humidity too high on my last hatch, and put the eggs in lockdown too early.

Poppy, the chick I bought from the feed store, is doing very well. The Salula has sort of adopted her, which is the cutest thing ever! Poppy snuggles under The Salula at night and the two of them eat together.

Ughhh I owe like ten people money on pkmncollectors and all the sudden I'm having trouble with my Paypal account. :/ They dropped my bank account suddenly and now it won't let me send money! Got to re-add my bank account, I guess, and hope that works, and also have some sales. Stupid Paypal! I'm so annoyed. I just hope I can fix the issue fast enough that no one will get upset.

Another annoying thing: The college keeps giving me parking tickets! So stupid. The entire last semester I didn't buy a single parking permit ($2 a day) and didn't get caught once, and this semester I've gotten several. :/ It's not that I really mind paying the $2, it's that I don't always have the change to put in the machine, the machine won't always accept dollar bills, and the machine doesn't give change and the cafeteria won't give you change. Really annoying. Next semester (and probably this semester too even though it's half over) I'm just buying an all-semester parking ticket.

I've been feeling really incompetent lately, so I'm wondering if maybe I should start going to counseling. I just feel like I have so much potential to be happy, but I keep dwelling on negative things, feeling pitiful, and so on.

Comments

[snowflaika.livejournal.com]

I saw the post but was in a hurry so I couldn't reply... I'm deeply sorry for your loss, it's even worse when pets pass so unexpectedly :( I know how hard is to stop blaming oneself when this happens. Hang in there <3

[scorpio-alice.livejournal.com]

here is something at least (maybe) a little happy to dwell on.
HOT LESBIAN CHICKEN ACTION!!!

Anyways, I just got a whole lot of extra time on my hands (due to a massive cut in hours) so we should totally hang out and do fun awesome things to make us both feel better.

[koyaaniisqatsi.livejournal.com]

*snugs* ♥

Good luck with the call duck eggs, I really hope they hatch for you.

I think counselling is a great idea, it can help put you back on your feet.