pacificpikachu | Bipolar days for a while now...

I had a really hard time last night because of losing Lily. It took me a long time to fall asleep because I kept crying and looking around the house for her and...I was extremely distraught. I didn't even know how to deal with my feelings at all. It was hellish. I don't know, I don't really want to talk about it because I've managed to distract myself for most of the day and wish to remain distracted for a while.

Today was supposed to be the introductory SWADA meeting at Sierra College, but apparently Shannon and I didn't advertise well enough because no one showed up. ^^;; I ended up stranded at Sierra College for quite a while because Shannon went to pick Chris up (not a big deal--it was amazing weather today), and then Dad and Shannon showed up at Sierra at the same time. XD;; So, Shannon, Chris, and I all went to my house and watched AMVs and flash videos for hours. Katie joined us later, too. We laughed a lot and had a wonderful time overall.

It seems like I'm either completely distracted from Lily and having a good time, or completely in agony over the whole thing... I guess it's just part of mourning. It's going to be a long time before I fully accept what happened.