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pacificpikachuWell, I was hoping Lily's seizure was a one-time event, but it happened again last night. While I was in Psychology class, Mom took her to the vet, who assures us she's healthy and isn't entirely sure of the cause of the seizures. So, she's been prescribed medicine that will hopefully prevent the seizures. It might take up to ten nights to take effect, though, which is...really scary. I've spent all day worrying about her and trying in vain to imagine what my world would be like without her. I've been on the verge of tears so many times today, and my stomach was in knots for most of the earlier part of the day. I could barely concentrate in my classes. So...hopefully the seizure medicine will work, and even if this one doesn't, the vet can add in another one that might help. I'm just so afraid it could be a brain tumor...which would be the worst thing ever.
After school, I spent most of the day at Mom's, so I could hardly keep my attention off of her. It's just so, so scary, because she was perfectly healthy two days ago, and she still acts perfectly healthy during the day (other than a possibly abnormal amount of panting and scratching, which I don't think is cause for too much concern, hopefully). I kept hugging her and calling her and telling her she's a good girl. I'm so afraid to lose her, even though it's pretty likely she'll be fine. I'm just preparing myself for the worst, just in case. I really can't imagine my life without that dog, though.
Darn it, now I'm crying. This is so scary. Maybe I'm overreacting, but I just can't help but worry about her. She was kicked in the head by horses twice when she was younger, and she never really did show any effect from that...but you never know. I really, really, really don't want to have to think about what life would be like without her... Just the thought makes me cry.
Mom's only working half the shift tonight, and she's bringing Lily along and leaving her in the car just in case she has a seizure while she's at work. We were given two shots of Valium that will hopefully snap her out of seizures if nothing else will.
I don't want to think about the "What if...?"s more than I have to. I'm not ready at all to say goodbye to Lily...and I think it would take me years to be ready for that kind of parting. With Lea, she had arthritis for eight years of her life, so when she started getting a little decrepit when she was eight years old, I began preparing myself to say goodbye to her, and that was still really hard to say goodbye to her...even eight years after I initially started preparing myself for that goodbye.
Anyway... I'm going to write about something else now. It's too upsetting thinking about that, and I went to Dad's partly because (well, mostly because Mom was working, but...) I don't think I could have slept at Mom's due to thinking about it.
I was hypnotised in my Psychology class today. That was cool... It was just a relaxation type of hypnosis, but it worked well. It felt like I was under that spell for a long time, but it was only fifteen minutes. My fingers started tingling, though, and I could barely feel my arms and I didn't want to open my eyes. It was almost like I was sleeping, or paused in a warm, peaceful place.
Nothing happened in Statistics other than a nice conversation with Rosalie and Lanna.
We were going to watch half of the Medea movie in English, but Hotchkiss couldn't seem to stop talking, so we only watched less then ten minutes of it. XD;;
I forgot to take a shower today. D: That's not cool!
Oh, and Dad might've found a house to buy! The one on Banner Mountain sold, but he found one off of Highway 49 (kind of near The Willow, for those of you who are local). I've only seen pictures at this point, but it looks quite pretty, it's only six years old, and it's a great location. So, I'm all for it and hoping I can get him to move in on it before it sells to someone else.
Well, that's all for now... I need to sleep so I'm rested for Chemistry tomorrow. :(
Ugh, I have an essay due in English on Monday, an essay due in Chemistry Tuesday, and...other inconsequential stuff. I just hate writing essays--even short ones.
After school, I spent most of the day at Mom's, so I could hardly keep my attention off of her. It's just so, so scary, because she was perfectly healthy two days ago, and she still acts perfectly healthy during the day (other than a possibly abnormal amount of panting and scratching, which I don't think is cause for too much concern, hopefully). I kept hugging her and calling her and telling her she's a good girl. I'm so afraid to lose her, even though it's pretty likely she'll be fine. I'm just preparing myself for the worst, just in case. I really can't imagine my life without that dog, though.
Darn it, now I'm crying. This is so scary. Maybe I'm overreacting, but I just can't help but worry about her. She was kicked in the head by horses twice when she was younger, and she never really did show any effect from that...but you never know. I really, really, really don't want to have to think about what life would be like without her... Just the thought makes me cry.
Mom's only working half the shift tonight, and she's bringing Lily along and leaving her in the car just in case she has a seizure while she's at work. We were given two shots of Valium that will hopefully snap her out of seizures if nothing else will.
I don't want to think about the "What if...?"s more than I have to. I'm not ready at all to say goodbye to Lily...and I think it would take me years to be ready for that kind of parting. With Lea, she had arthritis for eight years of her life, so when she started getting a little decrepit when she was eight years old, I began preparing myself to say goodbye to her, and that was still really hard to say goodbye to her...even eight years after I initially started preparing myself for that goodbye.
Anyway... I'm going to write about something else now. It's too upsetting thinking about that, and I went to Dad's partly because (well, mostly because Mom was working, but...) I don't think I could have slept at Mom's due to thinking about it.
I was hypnotised in my Psychology class today. That was cool... It was just a relaxation type of hypnosis, but it worked well. It felt like I was under that spell for a long time, but it was only fifteen minutes. My fingers started tingling, though, and I could barely feel my arms and I didn't want to open my eyes. It was almost like I was sleeping, or paused in a warm, peaceful place.
Nothing happened in Statistics other than a nice conversation with Rosalie and Lanna.
We were going to watch half of the Medea movie in English, but Hotchkiss couldn't seem to stop talking, so we only watched less then ten minutes of it. XD;;
I forgot to take a shower today. D: That's not cool!
Oh, and Dad might've found a house to buy! The one on Banner Mountain sold, but he found one off of Highway 49 (kind of near The Willow, for those of you who are local). I've only seen pictures at this point, but it looks quite pretty, it's only six years old, and it's a great location. So, I'm all for it and hoping I can get him to move in on it before it sells to someone else.
Well, that's all for now... I need to sleep so I'm rested for Chemistry tomorrow. :(
Ugh, I have an essay due in English on Monday, an essay due in Chemistry Tuesday, and...other inconsequential stuff. I just hate writing essays--even short ones.
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