*Sigh*

[pacificpikachu]

Feeling slightly better than I was before, but I'm still rather jarred and upset. There's still a chance I'll get in (and not too bad of one), I know--I just have a bad feeling about that chance, even if I work really hard and do my best to make my portfolio more impressive. :/ It's pathetic I was on the verge of crying about ten times over the fact that they said they're still considering it (okay, and one of the times I was thinking about Brokeback Mountain. Yes, I'm feeling sappy and not altogether sane at the moment). It's not like I was rejected altogether. O_o;

I'm drowning my sorrows in the Brokeback Mountain soundtrack (which I just downloaded, but will honestly buy at some point XD) and writing something very important I've been putting off for way too long. At this point, I'm starting to get all messed-up feeling and I should probably stop writing for the sake of what I'm writing. I feel sort of like I'm in a dream right now...

Ack, and my lower back really hurts for no apparent reason. x.x

Comments

[scorpio-alice.livejournal.com]

{hugs} I'm sorry that happened to you. {hugs}

Yeah, I don't think I have stoped thinking of brokeback mountain, I LOVE THAT MOVIE, {sob}

[archaneah.livejournal.com]

If you need to talk, I'm a phone call away. And remember, it's not over until the politically correct, metaphorical, obeise person of the female variety sings. Don't give up. Even if you don'g get in, you'll find a way to make life work.

[pacificpikachu.livejournal.com]

I know. ^^ I'm not feeling all that social right now, though. Are you doing anything tomorrow, out of curiousity? Maybe we could have a get-together of some sort (if my back hasn't completely died by that time). I know you're busy Saturday and Sunday, but...

I won't give up. And even if I don't get in, I'll figure something out. I'm sure you can figure out what the more important part of going to that particular college is to me. :P I suppose as long as I'm close to it, I'll be at least semi-alright. I could always go to a community college right in the Portland area and transfer in as a Sophomore.

[pacificpikachu.livejournal.com]

It's okay. Like I said, there's still a decent chance--I'm just upset. :/ I'm feeling considerably better now, though... I imagine I'll go through lots of ups and downs confidence-wise over the next few months. I'd better start working on a Plan B, too.

I can't stop thinking about Brokeback Mountain. OMG, I'm in love with it. WAHHH. T_T I'm afraid I'm going to scare my family by talking about it so much. XD;; (Ryan practically freaked out when I told him it was an R-rated movie about gay cowboys. I did it for the shock value. XD) Check out how many awards it's won so far, though: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brokeback_Mountain (Towards the bottom)

OMFG, anyone?

[archaneah.livejournal.com]

I can hang out tomorrow if you want. Just give me a call soemtime tomorrow morning and we'll talk it over. You could definately go to a JC in portland. It's probably only a ten minute bus ride from L&C. The only problem is, it would probably be more expensive because of of apartment fees instead of Dorm fees. That's just a technicle issue though.

Anyway, drink some teas and go read a good book and calm down. It's not over yet.

I know you've calmed down. But just so you don't forget: A reminder.

-K

[pacificpikachu.livejournal.com]

Okay! Call you tomorrow morning. And by morning, I mean...y'know, like noon. XD;

Thanks for the reminder. I'm rather amused by it in its redundancy, actually.

[trf-chan.livejournal.com]

Aw...I hope you get in. :( Like you said, your chances aren't too bad.