Well...

We put Lily down tonight.

It was, without a doubt, the hardest, most painful thing I've ever done. I'm going to be suffering for a very long time, and it hurts so much that there are no words for what I'm feeling. I'm in complete shock and I have absolutely no idea how I'm going to get over this.

We made the right decision, and her death was peaceful (though I'm haunted by it), but this is just...the hardest thing in the whole world.

We'll probably get a rescue border collie puppy soon, but nothing will ever be the same. I can't believe she's gone...

Lily, you brightened up my life like no other dog ever could. I guess the only way I could express my gratitude to you, in the end, was to let you go to a place where your suffering has ended. It hurt me more than you'll ever know, but I'm so, so, so inexpressibly happy that I ever got to spend your time on earth with you. I don't know how I'll be able to live now that you're gone, but... I love you, and in the end this was all we could do. I'll never forget you, as long as I live, and I hope that you can now rest in peace.

Now comes the hardest part--living on with only my memories of you to guide me.

This is so, so, so hard. I'm in denial right now, and it just...hurts in ways that nothing ever has.

Sorry I'm blocking comments. I've really appreciated everyone's sympathy, and your messages make me so happy to have friends like all of you, but there's nothing in the whole world that could make this less painful now. The grief is overwhelming, and I don't think it's really set in yet.

Well...

We put Lily down tonight.

It was, without a doubt, the hardest, most painful thing I've ever done. I'm going to be suffering for a very long time, and it hurts so much that there are no words for what I'm feeling. I'm in complete shock and I have absolutely no idea how I'm going to get over this.

We made the right decision, and her death was peaceful (though I'm haunted by it), but this is just...the hardest thing in the whole world.

We'll probably get a rescue border collie puppy soon, but nothing will ever be the same. I can't believe she's gone...

Lily, you brightened up my life like no other dog ever could. I guess the only way I could express my gratitude to you, in the end, was to let you go to a place where your suffering has ended. It hurt me more than you'll ever know, but I'm so, so, so inexpressibly happy that I ever got to spend your time on earth with you. I don't know how I'll be able to live now that you're gone, but... I love you, and in the end this was all we could do. I'll never forget you, as long as I live, and I hope that you can now rest in peace.

Now comes the hardest part--living on with only my memories of you to guide me.

This is so, so, so hard. I'm in denial right now, and it just...hurts in ways that nothing ever has.

Sorry I'm blocking comments. I've really appreciated everyone's sympathy, and your messages make me so happy to have friends like all of you, but there's nothing in the whole world that could make this less painful now. The grief is overwhelming, and I don't think it's really set in yet.